It’s an interesting scenario: interviewing for a position that sounded great originally, but now you’re not necessarily as excited about… Today I ended up interviewing hard for a job I didn’t particularly want.
Still, despite not really wanting the job, I found myself desperately wanting to be offered the job. Which I thought was a bit odd.
There’s a strange psychology at play here. Though I realized I wasn’t really all that eager to actually take the job, I still did my best to be charming (no small feat, to be sure) and to demonstrate the ways in which I could be a good choice for the position.
I suspect it was something to do with wanting to be wanted — just because I had lost interest in them didn’t mean that I didn’t want them to be interested in me, right? It’s like being asked out on a date by someone you’re not interested in: in many cases, you still want to be asked, even if you will say no.
All that aside, the journey from “this is great!” to “meh, no thank you” was swift. Heading over to the interview, I was pumped — this was an interesting job, with a great company (that has a stellar Diversity & Inclusion reputation, by the way), and it would be terrific experience on my résumé. So why, then, did I find myself so quickly losing interest?
It wasn’t because the interviewers weren’t interesting. Indeed, my hypothetical future boss was great: engaging, charming, and funny. I get the feeling he’d be a lot of fun to work with. And the other interviewer, the person I would be replacing when she moved on, was great also… if the team, and the company’s culture, were anything like these two individuals, I’d have loved working there.
The work itself was still fascinating, though admittedly it had the potential to veer slightly off-course from where I expect my Ph.D. research will take me. Granted, nothing says that work and school have to perfectly align in that respect, but it sure would be a nice coincidence if I was able to do a meaningful study in the workplace and earn both professional and academic success through it.
And it wasn’t necessarily because the position would basically require me to stay in New York City… Yes, geographic flexibility is important to me, because as I posted recently, I’ve got “starting a family” on the brain, and we’re considering options outside of NYC. But even with this whole team being in NYC, I could always work my tail off for two years and try to earn the right to work remotely… Or I could simply plan to get a new job, potentially at yet another company, when the time came to move.
No, I suspect the reason I found myself disenchanted with the opportunity today was because I got a different job offer earlier in the day, at my current employer. But that’s a story for another time. 😉